Several nights this week I went to bed with a series of
small problems in my mind. Instead of sleeping, I wrestled with those little
issues. Instead of giving them to God, I tried to solve them myself. Oh, I did
pray, but then tried to figure out the answers to my own prayers.
Each night I finally fell asleep without solutions, and
each morning woke up tired, but with a clear answer in my head. Some would say
that my subconscious mind solved the problems, but I don’t give my brains any
credit. God promises to answer prayer, and He will do it if I get out of the
way and let Him.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6–7)
These favorite verses outline the kind of praying that
lets a person go to sleep at night. When I prayed, I was “being anxious” which
indicates that I wasn’t thinking about the power of God and His promises to
answer my prayers. Also, I wanted the answer before I went to sleep and fussed
that it was not forthcoming.
Thanksgiving was missing too. When I pray with
thanksgiving, it shows that I am confident in God. Not only will He answer my
prayers, but He gave me the problem for good reasons, particularly that I might
draw close to Him. Instead of doing that, I was exploring my own mind and
experience in my search for solutions. Duh.
For those reasons, the peace of God didn’t guard my heart
and mind. Instead of trusting Him to answer me in His way and His timing, I struggled
to answer my own prayers and was tired all week. After being a Christian for
many years, I thought I knew better. However, knowing what to do and actually doing
it can be separated by a very long night.
Lord, I’m almost laughing at myself, at least in between
giving my backside a few swift kicks. You are gracious and helped me with all these
issues, but isn’t that Your faint chuckle and small whisper I hear saying, “Will
this gal ever learn!”
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