Help my unbelief

Piper’s devotional for today contains this line: “Let us spread a passion for the supremacy of God in all things, not by coercion, but by compelling conviction.” I’m not sure how that is done by coercion, but agree whole-heartedly that it must be by a deep conviction. If I’m doubting that God is in control, it will show up. While lack of faith could be the problem, doubt could arise from a proud attitude that I know better than God. It happened to Peter. Jesus spoke of His death…

And Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him, saying, “Far be it from you, Lord! This shall never happen to you.” But he turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a hindrance to me. For you are not setting your mind on the things of God, but on the things of man.” (Matthew 16:22–23)

The disciples had much to learn about God’s sovereign power. So do the rest of us. Some evidence of not knowing, or forgetting truth about God can be: arrogant pride, or questioning doctrines (which isn’t always a bad idea), or emotionally responding to bad news, or questioning God’s fairness or goodness, or always wanting evidence, or feeling disconnected perhaps by His silence or lack of answered prayer, or fear of the future, or failure to read and meditate on His promises, or just plain disobedience.

When a distraught father brought his demon-possessed son to Jesus, he said, “if you can do anything, have compassion on us and help us.” And Jesus said to him, “ ‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!” (Mark 9:22–24)

This man knew that faith and doubt can co-exist. He trusted the Lord in one way or he would not have brought his son to Jesus, but he recognized his doubts too. The boy’s problem seemed beyond fixing and perhaps the father’s unbelief was blocking the miracle he wanted. He also recognized that he needed help from the Lord to fully believe He would do what was needed. In other words, faith is not something this man could just conjure up on his own. He knew it was a gift from God. Paul later affirmed this:

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. (Ephesians 2:8–9)

Without that compelling conviction, which is often called the assurance of faith, my mind will waffle between trusting God when I see or feel Him at work, and not being certain when nothing is happening. I fall into ‘walking by sight’ which is not faith at all.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

When my assurance is missing and I am waffling, the Lord is merciful with a solution. He says “faith comes by hearing” to those who did not yet have the NT. To me, faith comes that way and also by reading — because the Holy Spirit uses both to enlighten me. He wants me to know:

I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life. And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him. (1 John 5:13–15)

There is one element most necessary though, and that is to recognize and confess whatever is blocking or replacing faith. Just the list above points to the most common avenues of doubt: questioning doctrine, following emotions, questioning God’s goodness, seeking evidence, thinking He is not listening, fear, failure to read or remember His promises, or just plain disobedience that assumes my way will work, or is better than His way. If I have these or any other unconfessed sin in my life, the first thing to snap is being certain that God is who and what He says He is. It happened to Eve in the garden and “Did God really say…” is still the devil’s favorite tool.

PRAY: Jesus, I know the answers to doubt. Doing what I know is another issue — and it suggests that I don’t really believe the answers. I believe. When I falter and fail to trust You, help my unbelief.

When doubt comes in

It began in a garden where the first couple had everything and they trusted God who gave them only one command: do not eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. The snake suggested six things that would mess with that trust and encourage disobedience, suggestions that still work.

First Satan took their focus away from all that had been given them and put it on the one thing they could not have. How different this world would be if everyone could simply be thankful, but as the NT says: “For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. Claiming to be wise, they became fools.” (Romans 1:21–22)

Second, Satan minimizing the Consequences by telling them, “You will not die” as if God lied. With their attention focused on the tree they forgot what God actually did say. This is why I need to daily read God’s Word — I forget what God says too.

The enemy’s next strategy was mislabeling disobedience. He suggested eating the forbidden fruit would expand them, make them more complete. He added to that lie by mixing good with evil saying the fruit was good for food, adding that it was also pleasing to the eye. His final lie was saying eating it would make them wise. They didn’t get it that he was calling God a liar and making his interest in their welfare appear greater than God’s.

In contrast, the NT tells me to get my wisdom direct from my Maker, not from forbidden stuff. Should I fall into that trap, I eventually realize how foolish that was. Instead…

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. (James 1:5–8)

An unstable person is up and down, trusting God one day and doubting the next. This makes me joyful then miserable, sure of God then unsure. It affects my moods, even my health. It certainly affects my prayer life.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.” (Mark 11:24–25)

And Jesus answered them, “Truly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what has been done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ it will happen. And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.” (Matthew 21:21–22)

It also affects my spiritual growth, unity with other Christians and the health of the Body of Christ. Doubt never glorifies God but turns inward and shrivels my ability to praise Him.

And he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, so that we may no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ, from whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped, when each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it builds itself up in love. (Ephesians 4:11–16)

The Bible says faith comes by hearing God speak of Jesus. While that builds faith, I find that any  doubt first must be confessed as sin. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

PRAY: Jesus, You also tell me, “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.” (James 4:8) Drawing near to You in confession of my doubts releases me from the enemy’s lies and allows that sweet surrender — an attitude of trust even in situations where life seems to make no sense. After all, faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen and without faith it is impossible to please You, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that You exist and that You reward those who seek You. (Hebrews 11:1;6)

Just knowing . . .

A few weeks ago, a book I was reading asked if I would trust God even if He did not answer my prayers for unsaved family members. The author seemed to suggest that their resistance could be stronger than God’s power to reach them. Before this, my confidence was not in my praying or in their receptivity, but in the promises of God concerning prayer and family, based on Scripture. I had been praying, “Not my will but thine be done” with the attitude that He was not willing that any should be lost. However, after this book, I felt estranged from God, as if He could no longer be trusted.

For the past couple of days of talking with Jesus and thinking about the nature of faith, I now see that the problem bothering me was not that God cannot or will not save people, but that the enemy does not want my confidence in God’s power. He saved a man (Saul who became Paul) who was determined to put Christians to death and turned him into an author of the NT. He saved me, a woman determined to run my own life and put me on my face before His Cross. Nothing is impossible for God. To suggest that He cannot do something is from the pit, not from the Holy Spirit.

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

Assurance is a characteristic of true faith in who God is and what He says. It is resting in God and His promises, not a hope-so longing that something will come to pass. True biblical assurance speaks of essence and reality — the real thing as opposed to mere appearance. It is based on God’s power, not my desires.

Faith, then, involves absolute certainty. Satan’s lies are designed to rob us of our certainty in God’s promises and make us doubt that He even cares. This is done to keep God’s people off our knees. He knows the power of prayer much better than we realize it!

In the Bible, the OT believers were told of a Messiah who would take away sin. They believed God, even though their understanding of Messiah was hazy. Their assurance of faith just knew that God would do what He said. This assurance of faith is the same in the NT.

Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls. (1 Peter 1:8–9)

Satan would have me take my eyes off God and His promises and be disillusioned by what I can see. That is, if those I pray for show no interest in God, then he wants me to suppose that God is not at work. However:

God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it? (Numbers 23:19)

He calls me to trust Him, not what I can see or cannot see. I think how He saved my husband — no evidence at all that He was working and suddenly, dear hubby was captivated by Jesus.

It is far better to believe God and to trust in His promises than the suggestions made by mere humans (who could be motivated by principalities and powers that are not flesh and blood) that God will not answer our prayers. I cannot live in doubt when He wants me to live in hope. Doubt puts my prayer life into slow mode whereas faith has me full of joy and excited to see what God will do next.

PRAY: Jesus, You have been answering prayer in so many surprising ways. The enemy does not want me to pray, and this latest assault has been devious. It came through a respected author, which made the devil’s tactics even more difficult to spot. Confessing my loss of trust in You helped, but also reading today’s devotional about the nature of faith was like a solid one-two punch in his face. Yes, I can trust You even if You do not reach out and save the people on my prayer list, but if that happens, it is not because You cannot do it. Nothing is impossible for You, not even melting the hardest heart. Keep my thoughts on Your power, Your mercy and love. Forgive and cleanse any doubt that people are lost because You cannot find them.

PONDER: Consider the power of God to do all that He wanted done through people to whom He granted faith, the kind of faith that trusts Him and therefore obeys whatever He asks. God is able. He makes promises concerning those for whom we pray. Trust Him to keep those promises and don’t add a “but if He doesn’t” doubt as if their sinful lives are just too far gone for Him to forgive and turn around.